I am so screwed. Highshool is a big fat road to no where. With just one measly year separating me from a life of freedom, art and Zack. I am so far buried into the ground that i fear i may never resurface. This is my desperate plea for help. Dear lord just give me straight A's and a 900 on my SAT. Thats all i ask.
12/09/2009
12/08/2009
The Name of The Game
Reporting live from my dad's house. The windows are all open and i'm looking down from the forth floor balcony at all the people going about their day. Trying to suppress (vocab word of the day) all the stress thats eating at me. What with Christmas looming in the distance and finals and national portfolio day and Ben's party.. all things that are claiming my attention. Oh and the fact that my grade point average is slowly depleteing. The only things that are giving me comfort are:
- Zack
- Tyson chicken wings
- and painting.
I'm just trying to make it through the days. These days are the worst and best moments of my life. So it's a win lose situation.
... so my mind is officially off.. Bye..
12/06/2009
The Anatomy of a mind.
So it's the first post. Day 1. 12/6/09.
I think xmas shopping is ridiculous. I've gotten things for only a few select people i love. Yet i'm still not done shopping. It's a vicious cycle. What you buy for one person you must consider another individual you have in common with said person and then you must buy for them as well for fear you'll get a vicious star from them one day as you pass them on the street. It's exhausting. And i'm running dangerously low on funds. Screw the economy, pretty soon i'm going to be dashing out of the mall with my arms full of unpaid for gifts with screaming security guards at my heels. I always new that one day i'd become a fugitive of the law. Who knew it was for stealing xmas gifts. Regardless, i still need money. Maybe if i get money for xmas i can tell everyone that i ordered their gifts from europe so it'll tale a while for them to arrive. Meanwhile i'll use my christmas money on them. And people say i'm not a giver. Hah!
...
I feel i must marry rich. Too bad for Zack, neither of us know what we're going to do when we marry. Zack is my boyfriend. My only reason and desire to keep from giving up on everything and going to live in a cave somewhere. He is perfection. Theres nothing more i wish for than to be living in a rundown apartment complex in the middle of NYC living paycheck to paycheck with him. Freezing our asses off in the winter eating spaghetti o's and grilled cheese every night for dinner. He is a master grilled cheese maker. They are so divine. As long as we have eachother. Thats all i need for forever.
Ta ^_^
I think xmas shopping is ridiculous. I've gotten things for only a few select people i love. Yet i'm still not done shopping. It's a vicious cycle. What you buy for one person you must consider another individual you have in common with said person and then you must buy for them as well for fear you'll get a vicious star from them one day as you pass them on the street. It's exhausting. And i'm running dangerously low on funds. Screw the economy, pretty soon i'm going to be dashing out of the mall with my arms full of unpaid for gifts with screaming security guards at my heels. I always new that one day i'd become a fugitive of the law. Who knew it was for stealing xmas gifts. Regardless, i still need money. Maybe if i get money for xmas i can tell everyone that i ordered their gifts from europe so it'll tale a while for them to arrive. Meanwhile i'll use my christmas money on them. And people say i'm not a giver. Hah!
...
I feel i must marry rich. Too bad for Zack, neither of us know what we're going to do when we marry. Zack is my boyfriend. My only reason and desire to keep from giving up on everything and going to live in a cave somewhere. He is perfection. Theres nothing more i wish for than to be living in a rundown apartment complex in the middle of NYC living paycheck to paycheck with him. Freezing our asses off in the winter eating spaghetti o's and grilled cheese every night for dinner. He is a master grilled cheese maker. They are so divine. As long as we have eachother. Thats all i need for forever.
Ta ^_^
A*marie
I was a little girl, alone in my little world.